-Episode 15: Time To Say Goodbye


    don’t know what to say.

    A very wise person told me that “it will only be long if we make it long.” No matter how true this is, no matter how well yesterday went, it still hurts like hell and it’s still hard for me to not make it long.

    Some may be wondering what I’m talking about. Well here’s the memo: My sister is gone. Jumped the country. Crossed the pond. She’s studying in Nottingham, England for a semester.

    We’ve all been planning, preparing, and helping Sarah get ready for this so much that I am now at a loss as to what to do with myself. Any inspiration for art has either flickered out, or become so large that I don’t know what to do with myself. Writing is being taken care of, since I’m writing this. If I tried to read, I would probably keep reading the same sentence over or stare at the page, unseeing. But I’m sure I’ll end up reading… in the end…

    I do not feel as if I can cry: we did that yesterday at the airport. And anyway, she’s coming back. I keep repeating that to myself, but I’m not sure how much I’m listening….

    Well….. I’m off to read, then…. and maybe finally start school…. self-explanatory poem, if you pay attention…. Call me; I’ve inherited my sister’s cell phone, so you probably have the number….

Knives and daggers,

Catch Me Swinging

Say youl be my friend,
say youl stay.
I don want this to end,
I don want you gone.
Some days are like this, more often than not,
but I mean it, yes I do.
It not like we had a lot of time together in the first place,
but it the vacancy that matters now;
the empty table in the corner of the tea house.
And I thought I was stronger than this;
I thought I be okay.
I knew it would be hard, but—

Say youl stay, say youl be my friend.
Smiling faces try to understand
and some comprehend this gloom
but they can stay with me as long as I like.

7 Responses to “”

  1. Taliesin_stephen Says:

    Psalm 119:114     Thou art my hiding place and my shield: I hope in thy word.
    I could throw bible verses at you all day and it might not be the first time, and yet, a big thing with me is this:  action.  People can become born again – receiving that incorruptible seed that fadeth not away, and still stray away by their own power of free will.  They can still be in turmoil over all sorts of things and feelings, they can be hurt and be in pain.  Everyone (and especially me!) goes through times like yours right now. Maybe not exactly the same, but everyone does.  And yet, I read the word of God and He tells me that I can be in peace, and have a prosperous life and a healthy life without fear (Amoung quite a bit of things as you might very well know). how is this accomplished?  It sounds so grande and fantastical that it has passed by my ear so many times.  But I have been changeing and listening and learning.  It does not come out of thin air – it takes faith (or believing).  Faith comes from practice and action.   Believing takes doing, and when it comes to the word of God, it is tough to convince your mind that there is an answer for everything that could be thrown at you or me to put me down.  Be it sadness.  This verse is one of my favorites because of the first five words. I have gone back to it many times to gear my mind back to where it should be.  Do what you need or would like, but know that there are people here and a father at your very breathe to help you.  It just takes action Liv.  Even if it is just action to stop thinking and start being patient and temperate till you meet your sister again, focusing your mind on more important things.  Anyways-  sorry for preaching, I do not do it that often, but I am still in the mode of my teen fellowship thingy I do.  Talk to you later!

  2. not_scene_chick Says:

    i’ll be praying that God helps you to be strong while sarah is away…
    thanks for coming last night…i was happy to see you! hope you enjoy the cd!!!

  3. EthanByUntitled Says:

    ::insert platitudes here::The clouds don’t last forever, Liv. Be looking up and eschew gloomy depression, because you’re better than it and stronger than it. You don’t have to try to be stronger, you just need to see how strong you already are.Be filled with hope and life, because the days are to short to play games with angst.

  4. sarahgrin Says:

    I love you. ^_^

  5. Anonymous Says:

    *sympathies* 😦
    I’ll probably end up going to college a continent away from my family next year, so I’m starting to feel the bummage too. *sigh*
    I also just wanted to say hi, and hope you’l feel a bit better soon.

  6. Anonymous Says:

    Wonderful Site! I love Witch Hunter Robin aswell as Johnny. ^_^

  7. Anonymous Says:

    I really am not all that mad. I just always come across that way. I don’t like my smile. ^_^

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